May You Live in
Interesting Times
When you are young and life seems
slow and boring and
you moan that nothing ever changes
around here, you long for
excitement and revolution. The first
time you hear the Chinese
curse ‘May you live in interesting
times,’ you can’t understand
why that would be a curse. What could
be more fun?
In the spring of 1978 I was living
in Afghanistan with my
husband and our six-month-old daughter.
It was a great time to
be there. The country was peaceful,
ancient and extremely beautiful.
Our windows looked out over rows of
poplar trees to the snowcapped
mountains that surrounded Kabul. During
the week my
husband worked as a doctor for Save
the Children, training
Afghan doctors and nurses in rural
health care. On Thursday
afternoons we left our modern house
on the edge of the city and
drove round the feet of the mountains
and their encrustations of
flat-topped houses to do our shopping
in the bazaars.
I loved the bazaars of Kabul. In
a warren of narrow streets
and alleyways you could change money,
examine carpets, get
clothes made to measure, buy melons,
huge pomegranates and
delicious grapes, try on heavy silver
necklaces and find pots and
pans. There was a timelessness to
the activity of the bazaars, even
when there were anachronistic details
like the calculators of the
cross-legged money-changers or the
red jewel that turned out to
be a chunk of reflector from a car
light.
On the afternoon of 25 April my
husband arrived home
and announced that the presidential
palace was surrounded by
tanks. Nobody knew why. At the end
of our side street we found
that there were tanks in the main
road too. There were also buses
and bicycles and taxis and horses
and carts and plenty of people
on foot. Life appeared to be normal,
given a tank or two, so we
drove on.
It was very quiet as we did our shopping
and something
made us decide to head home early.
As we drove through the
streets there was a series of sudden
explosions close by and the
Land Rover seemed to leap into the
air. Home suddenly seemed
very far away.
During our anxious drive through
an increasingly empty
city, past roadblocks that had sprung
up, we saw that a pair of jet
fighters had appeared in the skies
and seemed to be circling overhead.
Back home we locked our garden gate
carefully and set
about our normal routine of unpacking
our shopping, preparing
supper and bathing the baby. At one
point we stood, damp baby
in arms, staring out of the back window
of our house towards the
city centre, through the V-shape of
the mountains, while the jets
spectacularly divebombed the area
of the presidential palace. In the
meantime the long avenue off which
we lived was preparing to be the scene
of an all-night tank battle.
Nothing can be more interesting than
finding yourself
caught in a fast-moving moment of
change, be it war, crime or natural
disaster. It’s terrifying maybe,
baffling possibly, but interesting
absolutely. That night in Kabul when
the history of the country
shifted on its axis was one of the
most interesting nights of my
life. At first we phoned friends in
other parts of town to find out
what was going on and nobody knew.
My husband even thought
of going off for his regular game
of squash until he phoned his
squash partner and was told that he
was sheltering from shelling
under his kitchen table. Then the
phone lines went dead.
Whatever was happening, we were on
our own.
And it went on being interesting.
We could hear the sounds of shelling,
bombing and machine-gun fire. I sat
writing
an over-excited letter home to my
parents, not knowing when
they would get it. The journalist
in me was thrilled even though –
maybe because – I knew we were
in a dangerous situation.
Excitement and fear are inseparable
companions. They are
both fuelled by large amounts of adrenaline.
The mind races. The
body is alert. Excitement is pleasurable
because you feel so alive.
In Afghanistan, as a journalist I
knew that I was living in the middle
of the biggest story of my life and
yet, as is often the way when
you are in the very middle of fast-changing
events, I didn’t have
the slightest clue what was going
on around me. Then, even as I
was writing my letter home, an explosion
went off so close to the
house that the plate-glass windows
rattled. My husband and I
leaped straight up the stairs, grabbed
our sleeping baby from her
cot and ran back down to the kitchen,
where we barricaded oureielac selves
in with mattresses and tuned into
the BBC World Service to
hear if somebody out there could tell
us what was happening to
Afghanistan. That was how we passed
the night.
As day dawned the machine-gun fire,
shelling and bombing
stopped. Everything went quiet. The
baby woke up, peered over
the edge of her carry-cot to see her
parents lying on the kitchen
floor and crowed with delight. Something
made me decide to
hard boil all the eggs in case the
electricity was cut.
Gradually our neighbours emerged
from hiding with their
own stories of the night. One family
had been lined up against the
wall by gunmen and had had to talk
themselves out of being shot.
Another neighbour had been blown off
his feet by a shell which
had come through the window of his
house. He and his family
had spent the night in the garden
and found dead bodies on the doorstep
in the morning.
We began to go out onto the streets
and found bulletmarked
walls and broken glass everywhere.
And still nobody had
an explanation for what had happened.
In time we learned that there had
been a Russian-backed
coup d’état and the President
and all his family had been shot.
Within weeks Russian advisers had
moved into the ministries and
the many Western aid schemes had become
paralysed. By the end
of that year the new American ambassador
had been shot in a
botched kidnap rescue attempt and
most Westerners, including
us, had left the country. A year later
the Red Army rumbled in, to
be followed, in due course, by the
growth of the Northern
Alliance, the rise of the Taliban,
Al Quaida and the American-led
bombing of the country.
Interesting times are interesting
because they are always
times of change. You have to pay extreme
attention to understand
what is going on. What is at stake
is the way things are and the
way they are going to be. The status
quo, whether of a country or
a marriage or a way of thinking, is
shifting fast. You can’t afford
to fall asleep.
The Chinese are right, though. Interesting
times are far too
unsettling to live in. Even if your
life is not at stake, your way of
life might be. And who can be alert
all the time? We all deserve
space in which we can rest, even if
we are only preparing for the
next attack of interestingness.
I offer a blessing instead of a curse.
May you survive
interesting times and live to enjoy
a little restful boredom.
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